GrOwN UP!!!
Here i am again!!! so free ar, girl??? hehehe… have i finished my finalz??? no, I’M NOT… but dunno since when i actually start to get addicted with BLOGing… fingers on the keyboard and brain starts her journey in her own wonderland… from brain to fingers then to the screen, words by words, sentences by sentences… slowly all my thinking "ta da!" shown HERE!!! everything… watever i’m thinking without scanning and rearrange…
Everything happens, happens for a reason!!!
after wat had happened recently in my life, i realized tat i had grown up… from a girl who used to be very self-centered and who alwayz put the blame on others when something bad happened to NOW a girl who will think for others… for those who care and love… for myself, for them… i have to be strong… continuing feeling sad and keep on thinking tat i’m the most miserable person in the world do me no good and also bring unhappiness to everyone around me…
although i know i have to be strong and no matter how hard i try, it is hard especially during the time of finalz… i have to keep on reminding myself that i need to concentrate i need to focus… thank God for He blessed me with strength and i’m able to stand strong now… ok ok, to admit… stand strong doesn’t mean tat i dun feel sad anymore… i do even till now and even cry almost every night, till my eyes are red and swollen…
but no worry as i’m going through each day with less sadness and more peace in my heart… talking to Him every night and listening to Him as He speaks to me bring me lotz of lotz of peace and calm and it helps me to get into a nice sleep…
heartbroken and heart shattered into pieces, i used to think tat i won’t be able to get through it… with God’s comfort, my best pal’s enlightenment, my great fren’s care, my room mate’s hearing ears and my coursemates’ as accompany… I Did It!!! here i would like to tell them aloud that i’m thankful for all they had done for me — SinLi, Sean, Michelle, Shing and Vfong… well, of course not only them who care for me… all my frens DO jz tat they happened to be around when i’m feeling down for the past week…
going through it but not giving it up yet, i pray to Him that if it is His will that with patience i should wait then i will… if not, slowly i will let go of it without my realisation…
