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Thank You… a simple words tat we learned how to say when we were young… parents will teach young children to say thank you when accept something from someone… as we grow up, we learn to say it when we receive things, compliment n even wishes… then we learnt to say thanks too when we politely rejecting something…

slowly, saying ‘thank you’ has been something very usual in our daily life… but today, i never know a thank you can actually caused such a big impact to me… a simple thank you is actually like a sharp knife tat cut through my heart… it hurts so much… so painful till i couldn’t breath anymore… :’(

Here i am again!!! so free ar, girl??? hehehe… have i finished my finalz??? no, I’M NOT… but dunno since when i actually start to get addicted with BLOGing… fingers on the keyboard and brain starts her journey in her own wonderland… from brain to fingers then to the screen, words by words, sentences by sentences… slowly all my thinking "ta da!" shown HERE!!! everything… watever i’m thinking without scanning and rearrange…

Everything happens, happens for a reason!!!

after wat had happened recently in my life, i realized tat i had grown up… from a girl who used to be very self-centered and who alwayz put the blame on others when something bad happened to NOW a girl who will think for others… for those who care and love… for myself, for them… i have to be strong… continuing feeling sad and keep on thinking tat i’m the most miserable person in the world do me no good and also bring unhappiness to everyone around me…

although i know i have to be strong and no matter how hard i try, it is hard especially during the time of finalz… i have to keep on reminding myself that i need to concentrate i need to focus… thank God for He blessed me with strength and i’m able to stand strong now… ok ok, to admit… stand strong doesn’t mean tat i dun feel sad anymore… i do even till now and even cry almost every night, till my eyes are red and swollen…

but no worry as i’m going through each day with less sadness and more peace in my heart… talking to Him every night and listening to Him as He speaks to me bring me lotz of lotz of peace and calm and it helps me to get into a nice sleep…

heartbroken and heart shattered into pieces, i used to think tat i won’t be able to get through it… with God’s comfort, my best pal’s enlightenment, my great fren’s care, my room mate’s hearing ears and my coursemates’ as accompany… I Did It!!! here i would like to tell them aloud that i’m thankful for all they had done for me — SinLi, Sean, Michelle, Shing and Vfong… well, of course not only them who care for me… all my frens DO jz tat they happened to be around when i’m feeling down for the past week…

going through it but not giving it up yet, i pray to Him that if it is His will that with patience i should wait then i will… if not, slowly i will let go of it without my realisation…

WAKE UP!!! WaKe Up!!! Wake Up!!!

ok ok, i’m awake now… a mail from my best pal was like a big ‘bang’ on the back of my head… i realised tat i’m actually been turning away from God.

in the time of feeling low and strunggling wif the burning pain in my heart, i’m blur… i’m standing in the midst of sadness and sorrow and i thought tat i’m all alone. instead of expressing my despair to the Lord and ask Him for mercy and strength, i went for instant comfort. that was the last thing i should ever do. and that was the most foolish action i did.

life is not all smiles and happy hearts - even for people of God. Seek Him more eager and be patient. never falter, never fear, and never ever think to run and hide. He knows all that we are going through and He will see us through any trial.

Only by seeking Him with a humble heart, we can be the strongest weak person. By faith we pray and with courage we admit our weaknesses. Trust in His strength and not in our own. When we are weak in ourselves, we are strong in the Lord.

Lord allows misfortunes to happen for a blessed purpose. So patiently trust Him. He will transform trials into triumph and in the end of it we will praise Him for it all.   

Suppose to bury myself in books and notes now… but wat am i actually doing now??? BLOGing 

Facing the monitor n my notes jz rite there in front of me… used hours to daydreaming, minutes to chit-chatting n seconds to revising… well, at least i still did some, ok…

Sitting with my legs crossed and my hand busy turning the pen and my eyes never ever bear to leave my notes BUT my memory has nothing to do with it…

NO~~~ not again!!! daydreaming againz :S

Ok ok… but i never let my brain stop working… i’m still very hardworking, u see… i’m busy thinking of when i shud go n do my Christmas shopping??? wat shud i buy??? how many present shud i get??? n how many of them i have to make by myself??? wat to make??? AND birthday present for the special one too… see??? how busy i am???

Oh yeah!!! n budgetting, budgetting… poor me… can never get a good rest… hahaha…

Not to forget, i just donated some tears to the TV drama… it was a singapore drama, starring by Fann Wong and Tay Ping Hui… the drama is "wu yan de ai" and it was abt SARS… ok, i watched it be4 n watched again now in malaysia channel… watched for the 2nd time still cried… weird girl, huh???

well… well… well… gonna wish myself all da best and best of luck for the paper tmr morning :p