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wao… wao… couldn’t imagine this is actually my 1st blog of the year… didn’t write anything for so so long… wat have i been doing all this while??? doinkz doinkz…

supposingly, wanna start my 1st blog of the year wif something happy… but now not really in da mood to write the happiness yet… why ler??? coz got something not so good tat ruin my mood lor…

27th April 2007… not a good day for me n my housemates… my house in ss2 got broke in by thief.. haih haihz… thief in kl is really daring.. they dun come out when the moon is out… nowadays, their trend is going curi-curi during daytime…

the idiot thief was outside my house attempting to "pancing" something out from my housemate’s room… he was trying so hard to get something valuable from the window… n his "visit" to our house had scare zynn as she was all alone at home at that time…

as for me, where am i till i knew the whole thing so clearly??? imagine i actually spoke to the thief… i never thought that i can be tat daring to talk to him when i already knew tat he is a thief… our conversation was like this… (took place a the car pouch)

elin: hey, apa u buat kat sana???

thief: cari kawan.

elin: cari kawan??? nama siapa???

thief: ah keong tinggal sini kan?

elin: tak ada… sejauh yang mana saya tahu, tiada pun satu laki yang tinggal kat rumah ini nama ah keong pun.

thief: oh, ya kah??? jadi saya silap rumah.

elin: silap rumah? tapi u pun tak macam tengah panggil orang… walaupun nak cari kawan pun bukan curi-curi tengok dari tingkap bilik orang… u tahu tak, i boleh panggil polis sekarang kerana curigai awak adalah pencuri… 

take notes, i was kinda fierce when i told him tat i wanna report police… n guess wat when i’m talking to him… i actually looking arnd to see whether can i get anything that is harmful enuf to beat him up till he can’t be able to run away but yet not that dangerous weapon till i can kill him lar… u know, in case i accidentally got myself involve in some murder case… too bad, there is none surrounding… if not sure i’m gonna make sure that he will be behind the bar rite now…

brave??? frankly, i’m NOT!!! gosh~ i nearly collapse when he left in his car… only by then, i realise how scare i am… luckily, still calm enuf to remember wat he was wearing n the number plate of the car… n i’m strongly believe that it was a stolen car… coz kinda ridiculous a thief driving a honda civic to steal thing…

after that thief left, me n zynn stayed at home waiting for my fren to come n went to make a report together… n now report is made & that’s the end of the story… thief case in Malaysia mostly ended this way… sad sad

n why why why??? this matter had to happen where there is a long weekend coming up… housemates all back hometown n left me alone here in kl… can’t stay at home alone anymore lor… haihz~ not to say that i’m scare to stay at home alone lar… jz tat dun wish to let ppl worry abt me lor so find a fren’s place to stay put for a nite… ok ok ok, there is a bit slight scare to stay at my ss2 house alone lar… but seriously i will be more willing to stay at my place n catch tat thief… of cos not to say that i’m gonna catch the thief by my own lar… but at least i can be able to call the police lor to get the thief to be caught on the spot b4 he successfully got into my house. HAHAHA very confidence towards the police force in PJ oh… believe that they are going to be real sufficient… 

Without realising i’ve been working for nearly 2 months already… start to like this job… why??? might becoz of the freedom i get. Boss is willing to teach n give us the freedom in work… she will keep track of our working performance but never eyeing on our every step and move… that’s the great part of it!!!

at first, i really thought that i won’t like this job n just going to stay for money only… now i’m going to stay on as i really feel that i can learn a lot from here…

we always tend to think that this is not going to suit us… that is not going to go as wat we wish for… this no good that is bad… but do we really put in our trust that it is going to turn out good??? seldom, rite??? once we think that it is not going to turn out well, we won’t put in effort in it. since we don’t put in effort, would it be good n well??? i doubt so… in the end, is it really that it’s not good? or is it WE the one who make it turn bad?

human like to pre-judge and assume thing the way we want without giving time for it to show its trueself… n once we pre-judge it, we seem like trying to make it just like the way we assume to prove to people that "see, i told u it’s going to be like this." funny rite??? so next time even i’m pre-judging it in a negative way, i wanna prove tat my judgment is wrong…

Working Life is always seems so unpredictable… 1st, it is not easy to get a job that you really like… when you get the job you like, the colleagues might be a problem… difficulties to communicate with them or they might be just too hostile to accept you…  and we need luck too for there is possibilities that we are working under some super duper idiotic immediate supervisor that will never satisfied wih your working performance…

haih~ haih~ when things come to that worse, we need to be back to the very 1st step again… focusing on the job recruitment section in newspaper instead of the big news that happen to the world… going through rounds of interview and answering all the same questions again and again and again…

after been resting and idling for more than one month, at last i got a job… at first i thought that i finally got a job that i want… u know, working in an event management company… dealing and handling of events… but so far, i’m like doing more to sales job… been focusing of doing a retails leasing project… doinkz~ doinkz~

still, i decided to continue working… why??? why??? too broke to choose job now… hahhaa… besides that, dun wish to judge that company now… so going to stay for another few months and see how things going on… hopefully i can be able to stay long in this company lor… really dun wish to go through everything again… wanna see myself achieving something…

to all my working frens out there… wish you guys have a great working life (",)

really a very very long time i never leave any blog… life has been another changing of level for me… officially from 18th Sept 2006 onwards, after receiving the degree cert… me bid ’sayonara’ to UPM. 3 years in UPM, the second i was up there on the stage receiving the cert from my Chancelor all da memories just flash back~~~ from the 1st day in UPM where i was like worrying whether can i adapt with the life here till today where i met a whole bunch of great n fanstantic univ mates…

with them, we shared our happiness, sadness, up & down of life… but now ever since everyone started to step into the next level of life… meeting up become lesser and lesser… to really get together and have a great sharing time become so hard… would the friendship last forever or it just stop at the moment we graduated???

hrm… my 1st sharing of the year. planned to write one yesterday as the last before 2006 but went out for the whole day yesterday so no time to write one… posted pics on sunset, very nice sunset… sunrise is the resemble of a brand new day n it is the time when u prepare urself to make ur day a better day n live to the fullest of it. sunset is the time when u reflect back what u did today n think of ways to make tmr a better day than today.

yesterday was the day i finally got to sort out everything… today is the day a brand new ELIN is born… many things happened last year n i believe tat going through all those things had made me more mature.

here, i would like to say a big THANK YOU for all those tat had been there to share all my joys n sorrows. Thanks for always be there for me when i needed u all… and i also like to say a big SORRY to those who were hurted or offended by my inconsiderate or my unreasonable. No matter what i said or did be4 that hurted or offended u, believe me i dun mean it.

for a special person, if u are reading this now… i’m really sorry for wat i did… other than sorry, i really dunno wat i can do anymore. i admit tat i always good in finding excuses for myself but this time i’m not going to for i couldn’t find any excuse to tell u or myself tat i dun mean wat i did. one thing i hope tat u will believe, my heart never change even till now. 

Thank You… a simple words tat we learned how to say when we were young… parents will teach young children to say thank you when accept something from someone… as we grow up, we learn to say it when we receive things, compliment n even wishes… then we learnt to say thanks too when we politely rejecting something…

slowly, saying ‘thank you’ has been something very usual in our daily life… but today, i never know a thank you can actually caused such a big impact to me… a simple thank you is actually like a sharp knife tat cut through my heart… it hurts so much… so painful till i couldn’t breath anymore… :’(

Here i am again!!! so free ar, girl??? hehehe… have i finished my finalz??? no, I’M NOT… but dunno since when i actually start to get addicted with BLOGing… fingers on the keyboard and brain starts her journey in her own wonderland… from brain to fingers then to the screen, words by words, sentences by sentences… slowly all my thinking "ta da!" shown HERE!!! everything… watever i’m thinking without scanning and rearrange…

Everything happens, happens for a reason!!!

after wat had happened recently in my life, i realized tat i had grown up… from a girl who used to be very self-centered and who alwayz put the blame on others when something bad happened to NOW a girl who will think for others… for those who care and love… for myself, for them… i have to be strong… continuing feeling sad and keep on thinking tat i’m the most miserable person in the world do me no good and also bring unhappiness to everyone around me…

although i know i have to be strong and no matter how hard i try, it is hard especially during the time of finalz… i have to keep on reminding myself that i need to concentrate i need to focus… thank God for He blessed me with strength and i’m able to stand strong now… ok ok, to admit… stand strong doesn’t mean tat i dun feel sad anymore… i do even till now and even cry almost every night, till my eyes are red and swollen…

but no worry as i’m going through each day with less sadness and more peace in my heart… talking to Him every night and listening to Him as He speaks to me bring me lotz of lotz of peace and calm and it helps me to get into a nice sleep…

heartbroken and heart shattered into pieces, i used to think tat i won’t be able to get through it… with God’s comfort, my best pal’s enlightenment, my great fren’s care, my room mate’s hearing ears and my coursemates’ as accompany… I Did It!!! here i would like to tell them aloud that i’m thankful for all they had done for me — SinLi, Sean, Michelle, Shing and Vfong… well, of course not only them who care for me… all my frens DO jz tat they happened to be around when i’m feeling down for the past week…

going through it but not giving it up yet, i pray to Him that if it is His will that with patience i should wait then i will… if not, slowly i will let go of it without my realisation…

WAKE UP!!! WaKe Up!!! Wake Up!!!

ok ok, i’m awake now… a mail from my best pal was like a big ‘bang’ on the back of my head… i realised tat i’m actually been turning away from God.

in the time of feeling low and strunggling wif the burning pain in my heart, i’m blur… i’m standing in the midst of sadness and sorrow and i thought tat i’m all alone. instead of expressing my despair to the Lord and ask Him for mercy and strength, i went for instant comfort. that was the last thing i should ever do. and that was the most foolish action i did.

life is not all smiles and happy hearts - even for people of God. Seek Him more eager and be patient. never falter, never fear, and never ever think to run and hide. He knows all that we are going through and He will see us through any trial.

Only by seeking Him with a humble heart, we can be the strongest weak person. By faith we pray and with courage we admit our weaknesses. Trust in His strength and not in our own. When we are weak in ourselves, we are strong in the Lord.

Lord allows misfortunes to happen for a blessed purpose. So patiently trust Him. He will transform trials into triumph and in the end of it we will praise Him for it all.   

Suppose to bury myself in books and notes now… but wat am i actually doing now??? BLOGing 

Facing the monitor n my notes jz rite there in front of me… used hours to daydreaming, minutes to chit-chatting n seconds to revising… well, at least i still did some, ok…

Sitting with my legs crossed and my hand busy turning the pen and my eyes never ever bear to leave my notes BUT my memory has nothing to do with it…

NO~~~ not again!!! daydreaming againz :S

Ok ok… but i never let my brain stop working… i’m still very hardworking, u see… i’m busy thinking of when i shud go n do my Christmas shopping??? wat shud i buy??? how many present shud i get??? n how many of them i have to make by myself??? wat to make??? AND birthday present for the special one too… see??? how busy i am???

Oh yeah!!! n budgetting, budgetting… poor me… can never get a good rest… hahaha…

Not to forget, i just donated some tears to the TV drama… it was a singapore drama, starring by Fann Wong and Tay Ping Hui… the drama is "wu yan de ai" and it was abt SARS… ok, i watched it be4 n watched again now in malaysia channel… watched for the 2nd time still cried… weird girl, huh???

well… well… well… gonna wish myself all da best and best of luck for the paper tmr morning :p

Yesterday, one of my fren told me tat i’m very ‘hao sheng’… not sure wat to call in english ler, i think something like fond in excelling others kua…

well, i din deny at the second i heard it… actually i dun like to compete with others but i jz wan to do things tat will reach my goal… i’m a perfectionist, i think… i won’t do things tat i hav no confidence in it… maybe to others i’m those kind of ppl who can’t afford to lose kua… but wat it means by win or lose? is it tat u get number 1 or u scored 100 then u r the winner??? but wat if there r another person who scored 100 too??? wat if there are 2 person who gets number 1??? will tat still make u a winner???

to me, i always think i’m a winner when i had reach my goal or i had achieved the satisfaction tat i wan… i had a target for myself be4 i do anything… n as long as i reached my target i’m a winner… i dun care how well others did… maybe they scored better than me…

ok, gonna admit tat i never make average target only… i can’t deny tat i always make high target where there are times tat i need to put in a lotz a lotz of effort for it…. my fren asked me do i really need to push myself so hard??? but different people hav different ways of doing things kua… jz tat sometimes my group mates will be very pity lorz coz gonna work with a perfectionist like me tat always demanding for this n that…

so, feel free to drop by and tell me wat u all think of me lar i accept all kind of comments…